Wednesday, July 13, 2011

Feeling like a burden

So, pregnancy number 3 has really taken a toll on my body. So far, I have had a terrible UTI, have been hospitalized with kidney stones (and another UTI), was constantly exhausted until I learned I was anemic and got iron pills, have had excruciating back pain, countless headaches, low energy, nausea, and the worst pregnancy brain ever. My husband is being as supportive as he can be, but this is hard on him. He's the stay at home parent, so he takes care of the kids all.day.long. When I come home, he should have a break- and by break, I mean a chance to do his schoolwork or catch up on photography. But he can't, because I can't. I can't do all that I could before. I can't stay up late. I can't help around the house, and sometimes, I can't even play with my own children!! I am trying as hard as I can to remain normal throughout this pregnancy, and I am failing- bigtime. I have been to the doctor, recently started seeing a chiropractor (who I believe has helped with my back, woot woot), I sleep when I can. I do what I can when I can, but it's just not enough. We need a full time nanny or something, not that we could afford one. These days, I feel like more of a burden on my family than an asset. The second trimester is just days away, and I am praying hard that things start looking up. I want more energy and to be able to focus. I want to help around my house. I want to have more patience. I want to stay up past 9 or 10pm. I do, I really really do. Here's hoping that Friday (when I'm 13 weeks) I will wake up refreshed, renewed, and look somewhat like myself again!

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