Being sick sucks...

Being sick when you have three kids who are also sick, well that's just damn near impossible. I can't be sick because I have to take care of my kids. Thank God for my husband; I don't know how I would've survived this last week without him (and here is where I tip my hat to all the single moms).

Apparently a plague of sorts struck our house. Over the last week and a half, we've had 1 ear infection, 3 colds, 4 cases of pink eye, 1 bladder infection, an infant with congestion, and Luis- he's stayed perfectly healthy (and here is where I thank his mom for being an extended breastfeeder). We'll all survive, but it's been a trying week. I'm extra tired, I lost my voice, my throat is still super sore. Seeing my kids sick hurts my heart. I cried when I found out Kadence had an ear infection, even though they are easy to treat and she hardly gets them, it still broke my heart to know she was likely in pain before we brought her to the doctor. Then Gavin, seeing him first thing in the morning with his eyes glued shut from all the eye goop...so sad, and kinda cute. And my teeny baby, first chest congestion then pink eye. He's brand new, he shouldn't have these problems! The good news is everyone is on the mend, and we should all be back to normal by next week.

Needless to say I did not stay on weight watchers this week. Truth be told, I only attempted to count points one or two days. I'm writing this week off, and just hoping I didn't gain anything. My diet was mostly comprised of bullion cubes and ice cream, so we'll see tomorrow.

I wish I was closer to my goal weight. I have to go back to work soon, so I am going shopping tomorrow for new work clothes. I want to be excited about going shopping, but I'm not. I'm just trying to encourage myself to embrace my size and not let the fact that I'm overweight stop me from buying cute things. This is just my transition wardrobe. I will go on another shopping spree when I reach my goal weight (hey, more motivation to lose!)

Then and Now

Then: March 2006
Now: March 2012

Then: Married with no kids.
Now: Married mother of three.

Then: A "messy house" meant some papers on the floor and a few dishes in the sink.
Now: I would consider that clean.

Then: A typical Saturday night would consist of going out to dinner, maybe a movie or even a bar.
Now: At home dinners and quiet time by 10:00pm

Then: Sleeping in meant 11:30am
Now: Sleeping in doesn't exist

Then: My wardrobe was selected 50% comfort, 40% fasion, 10% price.
Now: I select my clothes 100% comfort- if it's a good price and/or fashionable, that's a bonus.

Then: I watched no kid tv.
Now: I watch mostly kid tv.

Then: If a doctor said I needed a procedure, surgery, pill, shot, etc. I would just do it.
Now: I research and question everything before I take it, consent to it, or give it to my kids.

Then: Vacations were at least once a year, sometimes more.
Now: What's a vacation? Kidding- but they are shorter, closer, and less often.

Then: My life was neater, and more about me.
Now: My life is messy, and every decision I make affects my children.

Then: I thought I loved Luis as much as possible.
Now: I love him more than I could've imagined.

While things are vastly different now, I wouldn't want it to be any different. I am so blessed to have my children. I am so thankful Luis and I had our "then" time, but the now- the now is so much better.

Weight Watchers Week 3 (and other stuff)

I'm down 1 more pound, and this time, I'm happy about it. I did good for about half the week, and though I stayed on target with my points all week, I'm just not eating right. I need to meal plan or something, and I definitely need to resign myself to having fruit or veggies for snacks. Also, it's important that I remember first off that I'm breastfeeding, so I have to eat more. Secondly, "slow and steady wins the race". I cannot expect weight that took years (and pregnancies) to put on to just suddenly fall off because I measured out how much cereal I ate. This is going to take time. Though I had a loss goal, I did not have a time frame. Maybe it will help, so my goal is to lose the first twenty pounds by July 1st. That's 22ish weeks from when I started. It seems so far away, but it's a realistic time frame. I'm also hoping to add in some exercise soon. I want to wait until my milk supply is more established before doing that though.

Other stuff:
My kids are adorable, and they sure know how to touch my heart. The other day, out of the blue, Kadence told Luis (and thankfully I was in earshot), "When I grow up, I want to be just like my mommy." Ugh...crying as I type it! And Gavin, my sweet Gavin responded to my "I love you." He said, "I uh you. Mommy." Then Luis said, "What about Daddy?" to which he replied, "I uh you. too. Daddy." (he pauses like that between words). We then asked him "What about Kay Kay?" and he said with a smile, "Noooooooooooooooo". Hmmm, maybe I should have saved that for "Saturday's top five laughs".
Dylan is growing so fast. He's starting to become much more alert, and he's smiling a lot more- especially at Kadence. It was the same way with Gavin. When he was a baby, she was the one who got him to laugh for the first time, and still can get him to laugh like no one else can. My boys love thier big sister (most of the time!).